Closure

My ex-boyfriend of 2 years recently contacted me to apologize. When I replied to say that I forgave him for the abuse, the manipulation, and the misery, that I was happy and engaged to a man I loved and it was everything that happened that led me to the love of my life, he replied with this. Keep in mind he is very religious, as I formerly was, and sees me as a sinner based on my ex-communication from the church. These are the words of a sick person:

"I'm sorry. I was unaware that you were in such blatant opposition to Jehovah. And I don't deserve any credit in the least for your current status. I find it disgusting that you would thank me for that. You were headed that way long before I met you. I'm sure that John is a great guy. But you know that, without Jehovah in the relationship, whatever level of happiness you believe you've obtained is temporary at best. It's not real. If ours wasn't proof of that, then I don't know what is.
I don't think I'm saying anything that you don't already know. But for someone with so much capability for good, I really can't believe that you could do this to Jehovah and your family. Especially****. He's such a great kid. I've heard nothing but good things about him recently. But I know that he's hurting. And he really could use the big sister that everyone knows that you could be. Anyway, as I said to begin with, this wasn't supposed to be a dialogue. I believe my compulsion for writing you to be a noble one. And I must not have made it clear that I didn't want or require a response. You have my prayers, as well as those of countless others. This is the last you'll hear from me. Gabriella, come back to Jehovah. There's nothing out there.

Ryan"

and my reply, after much thought was:

"You have not changed one bit. It wasn't the seizures that made you a jerk, that's just who you are Ryan. I am only writing this to tell you two things. One, that my family does not need nor WANT your sympathy ever. They have hated you since the day they met you, and with good reason. I think they would rather rip their eyes out then ever see, talk, or hear from you. If you EVER contact them in any way be prepared for the consequences of your actions. It's bad enough what they had to go through with our "relationship". And two, who are you to even presume you know anything about me or my happiness. We didn't work out because you are a bi polar psycho that continually abused, manipulated, and broke me down so that you could control me and keep me in a situation I NEVER wanted to be in. Maybe you will never accept it, but EVERYONE knows the truth, EVERYONE saw the truth. "god" had nothing to do with that. It doesn't matter what people think of me now, they know what you are, and if they don't, I'm sorry that they are fooled by you. I replied to you simply to let you know that REGARDLESS of what you put me through I am happy and content with who i am and where i am in my life. Leave it to you to let the self righteous prick you are out when you find out that I am no longer available, in addition to being happy and unaffected by you. I wonder if you will ever accept what you are?

ABSOLUTELY NEVER CONTACT ME OR MY FAMILY AGAIN IN ANY WAY. "

You are not worthy of a name,

I am done with your manipulation, your negativity, your overall evilness.
That's the end of our dysfunctional bullshit. If you ever read this, you asshole, you will never escape what you do to people. One day it will come back to you ten fold, but until then, I am done with you. I no longer have anything but apathy towards what happened, what you did to me. I am done. And that is the end of that chapter of my life.

I needed closure, but to speak to him makes bile come into my throat. To think I was controlled for so long by someone so obviously beneath me in character and overall being, it disgusts me. I am done with it all, I am done being angry. I am done trying to get across to him that I have moved on. I will be happy and prosperous despite what he did. That is the best and only revenge I need.